Welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

Horoscope

I never believe much in horoscopes. Maybe it's because the good things they predict never really turn out to be true! Well, anyway, since my birthday is coming up, I figured this weeks horoscope may be worth mentioning:

A close friend or family member is holding back on you, and you should do what you can to draw them out. It could be that they're embarrassed or in denial, but your gentle persistance should do the trick.

Chitty chitty bang bang

Chitty chitty bang bang! The fireworks pop as the last lights go off. And soon after the happiest period of my life is over. So what follows next? Misery? Emptiness? Or the calm in the eye of the storm?

Is it so difficult to just want to be happy? Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness is all we long for and all we dream for. But yet sometimes happiness has to be given up for a greater good. I never thought there could be any greater good....

Happiness comes gradually but ends abruptly, its just like the stock market. Did you see how the STI rose to record highs steadily and come crashing down within 2 weeks? It's like an avalanche crushing down on you, breaking your bones and squeezing the soul out of your body! Just when you thought you were reaching 7th heaven skiing down the black diamond....

Its past 5am and the radio is playing "i wish that i could turn back the clock". How appropriate, turn back the clock and slo mo the good times while skipping the bad ones!

On hindsight I never thought I could be that happy, so at least now I know its possible. Life goes on but it could never be the same again...

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea touch the sky?
Don't they know, it's the end of the world.....

sigh, I'm so fucked up...