Thank you

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I
Got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window
And I can't see at all
But even if I could it would all be grey
With your picture on my wall
It reminds me that it's not so bad, not so bad....

I want to thank you
For giving me the best days of my life
Oh, just to be with you
Is having the best day of my life

Drank to much last night got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again
But even if I'm there they'd all imply
That I might not last the day
And then you called me
And it's not so bad, not so bad...

Push the door I'm home at last
I'm soaking through and through
And then you handed me a towel
And all I see is you
Even if the house falls down now
I wouldn't have a clue
Because you're near me
And it's not so bad, not so bad...

Erm, I'm not sure if anyone wouldn't have a clue if the house falls down? Fire, earthquake or hurricane, take your pick, but I'd certainly run for my life haha! Otherwise I think it's a beautiful song. Relationships IMHO are all about being there for each other, as much of the time as possible, so that in the bad times it's "not so bad" and when its the good times, its "oh so good"!

I took a walk around bugis junction tonight and it was surprisingly empty. True it's a weekday night, but usually Thursday is more crowded. I used to hang out in this neighbourhood all the time cos YW lived few blocks away. Always convenient to drop by his place for Sam Adams and to just hang out around there! Boy I miss those good 'ol days! YW you better entertain me if I ever come to London!

Forrest is gonna be in town tomorrow. This chap is a friend of a friend from Bay Area who happens to be working in the Tsunami rebuilding project in Aceh. Its quite a long shot from the Bay Area to Aceh, and I really admire his courage and enthusiasm. Anyway I think he is stopping by Singapore on the way back to the US, so it'll be a fun time to meet up. And perhaps check out Cal drinks at Loof. Something tells me I'm gonna be at Bugis area again though haha....

I haven't watched much tv in a long time. Not sure what's on. Surprisingly, I never watched much when I was in US this time too. After we were done with stuff and finished watching the Daily Show and Colbert Report, there usually isn't much else left to see except SouthPark. Hmm, perhaps I don't really need TV in my life that much. Perhaps YW has seen the light.....

Into the Ocean end it all

Somebody called me a float. Float? Well, I think it was supposed to be a bad thing. A float is something that is needed when one is in distress, but is otherwise not very useful. Floats are cheap and after you use it, you don't really bother about retrieving it.

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I am falling in the ocean
Let the wave up, keep me down
Let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down
Let the rain come down....

Then again if you want to swim away in the big ocean with a hurricane brewing you'd better want a float nearby! And hell no you won't discard it after using it! haha.

There has been quite a bit of turbulence in my life lately, and I am greatful for all the great friends who have lent their support. It always feels good to know that I'm not alone. Sometimes life's ups and downs makes me forget how to enjoy the music in my ear, the sound of the leaves falling and the wind in my hair as I skate down the park in the morning.... and especially all of them at the same time!

Is it worse to be miserable for a long period of time or to be happy one moment and sad the next over and over again? I always always thought that its worse to be miserable for a long period of time, because if there is at least a glimpse of happiness there is hope for the future. I guess I really don't know the answer to this question.

What is my greatest fear? It's not cockroaches or lizards of the fear of falling... Okay I hate falling, but I'd do it if I have to. I guess my greatest fear is loneliness.

life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness

Yo everyone! Well, this blog's been kinda quiet for a while, I guess its some consequence of my life being a bit topsy turvy for the past month or so. Everyone goes through this phase at some point of time in life, so I suppose I'm no exception.

My estate is going on en-bloc sale. Or at least they are hoping to... If it goes through my parents will make a lot of money and will happily enjoy their retirement. That's IF it goes through. In the meantime the entire housing estate is just bickering, even on a Mother's Day night! Don't these people have mothers to entertain tonight?

Sometimes I wonder how my life is turning out to be. There's quite a lot of uncertainty in my life right now. To some extent I guess I should be contented that things finally seem somewhat alright compared to before, but somehow its still not clear where I'm heading. Can I ever be satisfied or at peace until its clear and certain which path my life is going to head towards? Just knowing the general direction doesn't seem enough.

Sometimes I try so hard to find a way to make things better. And sometimes I end up making things a little worse in the process instead, it can be quite frustrating. But then again, I guess life's all about laughing it off, picking yourself up and trying again. This process has probably made me a lot more thick skinned, though its really difficult to laugh sometimes.

Is it really the impossible that I wish to achieve in life? Fame, fortune or power? Those do not appeal to me right now. All I want is to be happy. To enjoy life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness. Perhaps it seems so near yet so far.