California here we come

In 14.5 hours time I'll be flying to LA. Finally back to the golden state! I guess I should be feeling all excited and pumped up right now, but for some reason I'm not....

Perhaps its the flu. What a bad time to have caught the flu. And by the way, its the third time I have the flu since the start of the year!!! Something tells me I never really recovered but probably just did too many silly things and got the virus taking over my body again.....

But perhaps its more than the flu.... I guess these days I'm searching for more direction and yet I can't find it. It's almost like I'm a wandering soul who does not know what he wants. And I don't know who can help me. I have choices, but yet there's no certainty that any path I take in any aspect of life is going to lead to greater happiness.

We hear of "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness" and I believe every word of it. Like the trailer of Will Smith's new movie "The Pursuit of Happyness" I believe that if one has a clear goal like Will Smith, and goes for it, he will eventually find happiness. But what if one doesn't have any clear goal? How then is the pursuit of happiness going to happen? Perhaps life and liberty are sufficient?

In my two and a half years back in Singapore there are probably only two things that have brought happiness: contributing to society, and earning recognition for good work. But then again such events don't come by often, and it takes a lot of sweat and tears for a short moment of happiness. Perhaps there's more ways to be happy. Some guru's say that one should be happy with a positive attitude approaching every task at work. I try so hard to do so, but unfortunately the positive attitude thing doesn't really last past the first hour of the day, or the last hour (knowing that I'll be out of there soon). Where do we go from here?

Perhaps I will learn more about "life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness" in the "Land of the free, and the home of the brave (BEARS!)".